Sick And Tired

Sick and tired
"We wanted an easy way out ... When we did seek help, we were only looking for the absence of pain."
Basic Text, p. 5

Something's not working. In fact, something's been wrong for a long time, causing us pain and complicating our lives. The problem is that, at any given moment, it always appears easier to continue bearing the pain of our defects than to submit to the total upheaval involved in changing the way we live. We may long to be free of pain, but only rarely are we willing to do what's truly necessary to remove the source of pain from our lives.

Most of us didn't begin seeking from addiction until we were of being tired and sick." The same is true of the lingering character defects we've carried through our lives. Only when we can't bear our shortcoming one moment longer, only when we know that the pain of change can't be as bad as the pain we're in today, are most of us willing to try something different.

Thankfully, the steps are always there. No matter what we're sick and tired of. The irony is that, as soon as we make the decision to begin the process, we realize our fears of change were groundless. The steps offer a gentle programme of change, one step at a time. No single step is so frightening that we can't work it, by itself. As we apply the steps to our lives, we experience a change that frees us.

Just for today: No matter what prevents me from living a full, happy life, I know the programme can help me change, a step at a time. I need not be afraid of the Twelve Steps.


I don't what came into me lately. It seem that everything that I do turned out wrong. Take my blog for example. I noticed that my sidebar's content are getting longer and longer. From a regular two column template, I changed it using Thur Broeders's Minima classic three column template.

It looked fine and I was satisfied with it for some time. One by one I added contents on both sidebars and it getting longer as time passed by. To save some valuable real estate on my blog, I decided to use some type of drop-down menu. After Googling some keywords like "drop down menu", "drop down menu codes", "drop down menu generator", "drop down menu javascripts" and the like, I came up with two WebSites that I really liked.

One of them is offerng for free using their Expandable Content Scripts. It's easy to use once you get the hang of it but I chose to use Switch Menu by Dynamic Drive. They offered quite a lot of drop down menu in several varieties that you can choose to your heart content.

I spent nearly two days trying to perfect the used of Switch Menu. For some reason, I was using FireFox 2.0 when I tried to copy and paste the Switch Menu and it looked alright in FireFox. About a week of using the Switch Menu, I noticed that the Switch Menu are not clickable when I used Internet Explorer 7. I thought it's not clickable in all IE version but a friend of mine from UK, the Jedi Master told me that the Switch Menu are clickable in IE6!

From my stats, I knew not many of my readers are using IE7 but I would like it very much if the Switch Menu are compatible in all browsers. That's not my only problem coz bt then I noticed that my main column, that is the middle column, it's content looked centered, as if I've used "div align='center'" on my template. The White Angel, Scott W was able to correct the post, but it seemed that the welcome note, Hello there. I see you're from ..., the date, post's title and at the bottom of the post starting from Labels till Links To This Post wanted to stay centered!

I spent so many days and so many nights trying in vain to correct the problem. I've joined so many forums and the latest forum that I joined was Web Developer in my effort to find some answers to my present problems.

While I was searching, Googling and Yahooing for answers, I came across a blog using some ingenius ways to gain traffic to his blog. He was having a ball, celebrating some anniverssary. He said if I wanted a gift by some known artist, I've to type in my email address so that he can sent it to me. Without thinking, I typed in my email address. Guess what? I was directed to one of his feed services. Without telling the whole truth, I was made to subscribe to his feed! Shessh! What a nerve?

I still can accept it at first. In fact, I laughed about it telling him I might use his ingenius way to make my readers to subscribe to my blog's feed! And then he came out with another project. He said he would do a review for any blogs or WebSites for free because he is feeling generous! I can do that too, but first you must answer and give comments for the Advertlets polls, located at the top right sidebar, below Email Me! Last but not least, subscribe to my feed and leave a comment or two on my blog for several post. To make it sweeter, leave a comment or two whenever there is a new post on my blog. How about that? Would you do that for me?

But everything is not bad. Out of it, I found a new friend, Liew Yee Piao. He is now a Pro-Blogger earning money from his blog, Simple Life. And you would not believe it coz he is only sweet seventeen of age. I know I can learn a lot from him about blogging and life for a matter of fact. In one of our emails communication, he said, restricting yourself from blogs is like restricting yourself from people in the real world when I told him how dislike I am to any Blogger using unethical ways to get some traffic to their blog. Beside, I came to know him from the said blog. He got a point there that is difficult to argue. I like him. He's a wise mature seventeen years old dude! (Lol! one of his favourite words, dude!)

That's all for now. I hope to solve my problem soon. It looked like Miss Moderator of Web Developer is trying to get some answer to my problem. Maybe I shall change to a new template soon...

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18 Comments thus far...

*lynne* said...

hi there! I like the very clean and simple look of this current template - ummm did you mention where you got it? I might need something link this for one of my other blogs... but a 3-col version... sebab my 2 sen worth is that 4-column templates work best if you have short posts, otherwise your readers keep having to hit PgDn over and over and over to get to the end of a very long and narrow post!

Wishin ya all the best in finding the template that fits right with you!

Anonymous said...

Thanks for featuring me here, DUDE!

I can see your problem here but I am very sorry I can't help because I am still not that good with XML, moreover XML hacks. Just started learning after Blogger implemented it.

It works well for me, and I use FireFox 1.5 in my college. Maybe you can try out other hacks. The keyword for it when I Google them would be "Peekaboo link list blogger beta". Peekaboo stands for hide and seek.

About your center column, i think I've found something and will send you an email at the time you see this or a few days after you see this.

If you think a problem is too hard to solve, just move on. I have problems with IE6 as well. It will appear as two column only because the NuffNang ads is too wide for my sidebar to accomodate and I don't plan to care about it though, at least many of my visitors are using FFox or IE7 already.

Nice to know you. Happy blogging, DUDE! Long hail the word "DUDE", maybe sometimes I overused it... Cheers!

Shadow said...

computer!!!! a blessing or curse, i wonder. good luck in sorting it out...

Anonymous said...

Hey, Noor Azman. How is my Brother of Swing?
Your computer woes are too much for me to even understand. Wish I could help.
Peace and Love,

lushgurl said...

Hey there Noor Azman! I know it's been a while since I've dropped by, so here I am!
I am so proud of self that I was even able to switch my template and background colours, I am not able to even understand what your stuff is about... That's OK though, I have other talents!

sharonsjourney said...

Finally! Your blog showed up! I've been stopping for a couple of months, & couldn't get it. I am so happy it's available now, I like reading your posts.

Oh, how I can relate to the sick 'n' tired, & the pain of it all. That's what got me sober the first time. I couldn't live with myself any longer. My conscience kept hammering away at me. It was either die, or get sober! I just went thru a couple of days of depression, my attitude sucked! Then, the steps came to me, the program talked to me. It said, "It's just a matter of changing your attitude, & perception, you can have a good life, & quality sobriety whereever you live." I had wanted to move, I was 'sick 'n' tired' of this town. It's funny now. This town.

I don't much at all about the computer, as you can tell from my blog site. I'm going to take some classes in the next couple of months. I have other things I need to do first. Hopefully I'll learn how to change my template, & all that. I'd like that. I'm sure you all would too.

It's nice to hear from you, thanks for stopping by. Oh! To answer your question. I am in good health, & in a good space. I'm so glad I have the steps!

LY Sharon

sober Chick said...

Until recently I did not truly know how to grasp that term "sick and tired of being sick and tired." My relapse sure allowed me to understand what this means.

Thank goodness when we come to that point of desperation there is a solution that is lived out by people that have suffered before us.

God is wonderful.

Michael said...

You know Noor I still cringe with embarrasment when I think about how I came to AA, you probably heard the story but well I had taken my mum, son, niece and her friend off to a caravan park for a week and well in a nutshell I got so drunk I couldnt drive back and did just about every horror story u could imagine.
I picked up the phone to AA and the rest is history, I aint drunk a drop since.
Thats not to say I am not still insane, take the sherry out of a christmas cake and you still got a fruitcake!
Anyway Noor glad you are well and you do seem a perfectionist, mt computer at work what I am typing on now has IE6 but my ones at home have IE7 and your blog looks fine

Christine said...

hi Noor
It does take quite a while to load your blog and then scrolling scrolling down to see what YOU wrote. I wonder if I want the easy way to see your experience strength and hope. Probably od.

I stopped checking or trying to gain traffic or looking to see who visit. I am counting on God to send my way who He Will.

Happy 4th--even if it a holiday here and not there


Shadow said...

a new look! cooooool.....

Michael said...

Hey Noor, I dont need another job now, I am earning that much from my blog that I can almost retire, it seems more and more people are wanting to read about the lost world but what will I write about when I retire

Marj said...

Just another recovery addict living life clean and sober one day at a time. Looks like you have several readers that are in recovery. I just wanted to say hi to everybody.

Michael said...

Noor, I am going to send you my letter to Skipsea Sands Campsite apologising for my behaviour 3 years ago, it seems I am still blacklisted.
I am still doing step 9s

recoveryroad said...

Hi Noor Azman! Greetings from England.

I've been wrapped up in stuff but wanted to drop in and say Hi.

Have you tweaked your blog? Loads now. Good stuff!

Have a great sober day.


msb said...

Nice to see you again up and posting.

Scott W said...

I have no clue about such codes and things. I have been having troubles with the "Do you wish to display non-secure items" pop up window, when I say yes or no it just pops up again and again. I have to ctl+alt+delete to close the damned thing. It does this when I am logged into Blogger but the comment page shows those windows to sign in with to be blank. It's a mystery to me and it is frustrating.

Good luck.

Meg Moran said...

I don't know anything about computers, and don't wish to really, but I love that we can share our recovery here and I love having friends all over the world. Best wishes to you my friend.

An Irish Friend of Bill said...

that computer stuff is all double dutch to me mate! But the new look is good! page loads a LOT faster too! Cool!
Nice to see you posting Mr Noor!

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