The Power of Love


Last week I met a school-mate of mine. He is about five years my junior. We were studying together in an elite boarding school somewhere in Malaysia (revealing the school's name will tainted the school's good name or so I'm told). He knows me very well. In fact everybody in school knows me. Maybe I was one of the stand-up guys who are predicted to accomplish great things in life! (If only they knew!)

Anyway, he is a successful doctor now having several private clinics somewhere in the state. Seeing someone from my colourful life especially in the era of the good old days, usually brings tears to my eyes. I broke down and hugged him as though he is my long lost brother. In fact we are 'brothers-in-arms' destined to be scientist. That's what the girls in the neighbouring school called us, the young scientist. Those were the innocent days!

We talked from one topic to one topic, reminiscing the past loving every minutes of it. At last we came to the topic of addiction. He told me he is glad and happy that I have finally quit using drugs (ends with another embraced). That's the power of love between the brotherhood of our school. But I'm still too ashamed to meet them.

Playfully I told him he must be making a lot of money prescribing methadone after our government have endorsed the used of methadone to treat drug addicts. He admitted, yes, he is doing ok but lately he can't get enough supply of methadone which worried him sincerely. He is now facing with a lot of problems.

The narcotics officers too are worried. Since methadone came to the drug scenes in Malaysia, many are cured and they goes on with their live happily. They're fewer addicts to be seen wandering the street looking/searching for the opportunities to make money and to score. To fill up their daily or weekly quota, they now aimed at the very clinics that prescribed methadone. Out of ten, usually two will fail their urine test. Now everybody is happy.

Only the doctors and their patients are not happy. Below is the lists of their unhappiness:

  1. The doctors spent more time answering the phone. (Usually addicts called the clinics first to make sure methadone is available. The second reasons because they are afraid to exchange pleasantaries with THE MAN!)
  2. The doctors had a hard time to explain to the addicts that there are no more methadone (Some addicts who are sincerely want to stop using will not believe what the Doctors are saying. Most of them broke down and cried. A few will drop on their knees pleading to the Doctors to help them!)
  3. The' true' patients will not feel comfortable with the addicts hanging around the clinics waiting for their turn to be called in to get their methadone. It will get worse when the man make their rounds. Then all hell breaks loose. The 'true' patients will get sicker and some of them turned around to find another clinic.
  4. The addicts will start using again.
  5. The price of methadone will go up sky high!
That's five for now. Then my friend told me the story of a well known personality in the NGO's circles telling the media how expensive were methadone compared with Hong Kong's. Then (s)he told the uselessness of methadone to those addicts who are using heroin with 'ice'. Which are all true ...but... Jokingly, I told my friend maybe (s)he felt left-out after the successful usage of methadone. No more parents sending their sons or daughters to them for treatment.

Disclaimers: The above is an addict war-story, a ramblings of an old senile and stupid drug addict who doesn't know what he is talking about. No harm is intended to any persons or organizations, whether dead or alive.

To know more about curing addicts, visit MethadoneSupport. Below is one of the many stories available there. As usual, the background music is a cover from Celine Dion's The Power of Love. I prefered the original singer, Jennifer Rush but I couldn't find it (if you don't count YouTube) but Celine Dion is not bad either. Enjoy both story and song as much as I do. Be seeing you.


Recovery Stories from MethadoneSupport.

I'm a 32 year old female that was addicted to drugs for 10 years. I started out taking my parents Soma's when I was 15. Then when I was 19 I started going out with a guy that smoked pot and was just starting to snort Percocet's. I watched him do his thing for a few months and then I decided I was going to smoke a joint with him. I gradually went from that to the Percocet's, Hydrocodone and then to Dilaudid's. When we couldn't get high from the Dilaudid's by snorting them, someone told us to try "shooting them up". It was the worst mistake either one of us could make. We were so addicted. Where we live... Canada is right next door. Over there drugs were so cheap. Where we lived a whole 8 milligram Dilaudid cost $50. In Canada a whole one cost only $25! I still can't believe to this day that we never got caught bringing dope into the states!We did this for about 6 years then it got to risky to go to Canada anymore. Dilaudid's in the states became too hard to get, but then Oxycontin came around in 1997 or so. We kept right on shooting them up.

My boyfriend ended up going to prison for a couple of years, and we eventually split up. I still kept shooting dope. My parents also were addict's. My mother shot up and my father only snorted. No I didn't get my mother hooked, someone else did.

Eventually a Methadone clinic came to our town. My mother was the first to go. I was scared to go. I had been an addict for 10 years and it's all I knew!!! But after I saw how well my mom was I finally made the call. I started treatment on July 12, 2005 and have been clean ever since! My father finally decided enough was enough and made the call himself.

We are all still on methadone! I KNOW methadone saved all of our lives!

Billie from Maine


The Power of Love Lyrics
by Celine Dion

The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling like thunder now
As I look in your eyes
I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake

[first chorus]
'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

Lost is how I'm feeling lying in your arms
When the world outside's too
Much to take
That all ends when I'm with you

Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'Cause I am always by your side

'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

[second chorus]
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love

The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away

'Cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can

We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love

The Power Of Love
By Celine Dion

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18 Comments thus far...

Ithoy said...

Great blog..
Dunno why baru hari ini ketemu blog ini. Wish I can introduce you to someone, to help him survive his days..

Michael said...

Blimey Noor, the methadone crisis sounds bad in your country, I guess I am glad that drink was my only real drug of choice!
Loved your post!

mAAry-AAnne said...

Hi Noor, I dont know much about methadone treatment etc. so wont comment on that. On Sunday night there was an annual music award show called The Grammy's which is held in Hollywood (or thereabout). There was a tribute to the Eagles and they played Hotel California. I thought that was cool as I had seen the words to it posted on your blog just that morning. So I can honestly say that I was thinking about you Sunday night. Thanks for the birthday wishes. Much appreciated.

Anonymous said...

Thanks for a great post, Noor Azman. I am sorry to hear of the difficulties with Methadone in Malaysia. It CAN help many addicts that really want help.
Here in U.S. we have trouble with it, too, but it is a whole different set of troubles than yours.
I was once on Methadone for a little over two years. Then I was also blessed enough to be able to use Suboxone -- very, very expensive but a much easier drug to withdraw from than Methadone.
I would say you are blessed that you are not caught up with either of them. That whole scene can really be a nightmare.
This is something I could talk about forever, so I will take leave now.
Thanks for an important post. Help is available. We do not need to suffer.
Peace and LOVE,
P.S. I think your school brothers would be pleased to see how successful you have become in your own right.

Michael said...

Hi Noor,
"The Power Of Love" was originally sung by Jennifer Rush in 1985, and its certainly my fave version, check it out, in the UK it was one of the biggest selling singles, in fact I think it was

Sober Chick said...

What's up with all this love theme going on. Jk. Thanks for spreading the love. May you and your family have a beautiful Happy Valentines Day!!!

lushgurl said...

Hey Noor, I've been on a stalk-a-thon today, so I couldn't forget my friend in Malaysia!!!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!...of course you will probably get this a day late, just remember, it's the thought that counts LOL

HUGS to you, my friend.

Mary Christine said...

Noor, You asked about why I don't have a link to your blog... generally speaking, I do not link to any blog with advertisements on them. So, that is why. I still visit, but I don't want to link to ads.

Michael said...

Noor, if you give me your email address Ill send u that Jennifer Rush song.
Alternatively u could try bearshare site and get it

Michael said...

Noor, if you give me your email address Ill send u that Jennifer Rush song.
Alternatively u could try bearshare site and get it

lushgurl said...

A stalk-a-thon is what I call visiting different sites all in a row, you had to know it would be a made up word, made up by me of course, true to my crazy self!!!
Stalking is what can get you arrested in the real world, it is constantly following, calling, harrassing someone, just being every where that they are...Thankfully I don't live in the REAL world most days LOL
Did that help? Are ya gonna remove me from your list now? Please don't, I don't deal well with rejection! I might have to come and beg you to take me back LOL!!!

Gwen said...

Happy HNT Noor!

Michael said...

ill send u it when i get home tonight noor


As always I great post.

Anonymous said...

It is 1:00 a.m. in your country right now. Are you sleeping? :D
Happy weekend, Noor Azman!

Meg Moran said...

Hi Noor thank you for your post. I know methadone is a vey difficult drug to get off of too...

Freedom from ALL drugs is my hope for every addict who still suffers

Shadow said...

i just loooove your posts! always! thought it's about time i told you!

flowerdave said...

gee, where did saturday go, it says 830 pm there. im late to work i think. just sayong hi and i hope all is well over there.

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