Catch The Rainbow


My last post about Methadone as a tool for recovery received quite a stir among those who are for or against the used of Methadone. I even received an email from Carol the WebMaster (or is it WebMistress?) of, MethadoneSupportOrg. It was a very long email, thanking me for writing and so forth. She said, I do the same thing by using my entire name.....but I figure if it even helps one person than it's worth it, eh?

But the best email I received was from my dear friend SCoUt. Quite long email from a quite lady like her and I got her permission to post part of her email for our pleasure reading. So, here it is:

Thanks for your post about Methadone. It is so important to let heroin addicts (opiate addicts) know that they do NOT have to suffer through withdrawal to get clean!!! It is also important to let "others" (like alcoholics) know that this is a tough addiction and that the alternatives to it (Methadone, etc.) also bring a new set of problems with it. I hope people will click over to the Methadone sit you linked to because that also helps to show that recovering heroin addicts are very normal people, living very normal lives -- just like me and you! Wow, there was a 67 year old woman on that site!! Teachers, lawyers, bankers, engineers, mothers, fathers -- we are ALL the faces of heroin addiction and recovery. Sometimes "others" think we are only the people who are laying in the parks or the alleys with dirty needles sticking out of our arms. You helped to dispel those stereotypes with your post. Again, thank you!
I will send this off now. I really get long winded when I write to you! And I am a quiet person believe it or not!

Love to you, Noor Azman,


Below is an article from about a successful Journey To Recovery. The audio is from Rainbow's Catch The Rainbow leads by Richie Blackmore.

Malaysia's Chinese will be celebrating Chinese New Year, Gong Xi Fa Chai for them. It will be a long holidays. My dear wife and me decided to spent the holidays down south, to the most exotic and peaceful small town of Lenggeng in Negeri Sembilan. She decided to bring nothing, no phone, no camera, no nothing. She said, she work hard for the money and she needs her rest peacefully.

Until then. Bye for now.


Copied and pasted from BangorDailyNews

Finding a Fix: Addiction, Recovery are a Journey
Walter Dunton, Jr.
Thursday, February 08, 2007 - Bangor Daily News

My substance abuse began when I was about 14 years old. It started with an overnight at a friend’s house with a little drinking — testing the waters. This began a long journey of alcohol and drugs, two broken marriages, children harmed, a number of OUIs and a failed year in the Navy, along with all the other troubles my addictive personality has brought to my family.

I managed to finish high school with few outward problems, although I was always just squeaking by in all my subjects, including sports and other extracurricular activities. I did participate in some sports, mostly track and field, but running was always difficult because of my use of alcohol and drugs. I picked up a cigarette habit, too, of course — they go hand in hand.

Most of all, I cared very little about other people.

By the age of 20, I had managed to get into a relationship with a high school senior, and before I knew it, she was pregnant. I wanted to run. But being raised the way I was, I thought the proper thing to do was to marry her, settle down and raise our family. Wrong! My use of drugs and alcohol was worse than ever and another baby was on the way within two years.

After the birth of my daughter, things were just too much for me to handle. I ran. I just left them. My wife divorced me shortly after that and I pretty much never saw my children again. Today I do have a relationship with them; my son is 30 and my daughter is 28. Her son, my grandson, is 6. Time goes by so quickly, and life is so short.

About a year after I left my wife and children, I joined the Navy, hoping it could "fix" me. During the short year before I was released with a less-than-honorable discharge, I went AWOL three times, hitchhiking from Florida back to Maine. Every trip was drug-related. I was arrested and taken back in handcuffs. I spent time in jail, and I never stopped drinking or using drugs.

When I encountered cocaine, I fell in love with it. Within a few months I was very ill. I had not slept much at all and I lost about 30 pounds. I had run out of money and had nothing left to sell so I couldn’t buy more drugs. I was at my rock bottom. I had two choices: jump out the third-floor window and be done, or ask for help.

There is no doubt in my heart today that God stepped in and made that choice for me. I asked for help and I got it. I went to a 30-day treatment program at Eastern Maine Medical Center in Bangor. There, I dealt with withdrawal and began the process of recovery. This was in May 1984. After I got out I went to an after-care program here on Mount Desert Island for two years. I did volunteer work, helping those in early recovery, and all of this time I attended AA meetings almost every night.

I met my wife of the next 17 years and we had a somewhat normal life, but eventually we divorced and I felt like a failure again. After some other failed relationships, I met a lady on the Internet and I fell in love once again. We moved in together and were married after about five months. After we were married she told me she had a problem with opiates; she was addicted to them. She liked to drink too — almost every night.

Since I was a recovering alcoholic and drug addict myself, you would think that I would have seen the signs, but my addictive personality was ruling my brain. That personality is why, today, I am still hanging on to my relationship with this lady, trying to make it work. She has not used alcohol or opiates for over a year. She used Suboxone to help her get off the opiates, and now she is weaning off the Suboxone.

I also have decided, after 35 years of smoking, to kick my addiction to cigarettes. So far it has been 44 days and I feel great.

Today I have been sober and clean for going on 23 years, but by no means has my addictive personality gone away. I work to keep it in check and every day I try to practice all I’ve learned in AA, NA, Al-Anon and through other self-help groups and therapists along the road to recovery. I ask for help every single day from my Higher Power and I try to be grateful for the life I have been given. I try in any way that I can to help others through the pain of addiction.

Walter Dunton Jr. lives and works on Mount Desert Island.


Catch The Rainbow Lyrics
by Rainbow

When evening falls
She'll run to me
Like whispered dreams
Your eyes can't see

Soft and warm
She'll touch my face
A bed of straw
Against the lace

We believed we'd catch the rainbow
Ride the wind to the sun
Sail away on ships of wonder

But life's not a wheel
With chains made of steel
So bless me

Come the dawn
Come the dawn
Come the dawn
Come the dawn

We believed we'd catch the rainbow
Ride the wind to the sun
And sail away on ships of wonder

But life's not a wheel
With chains made of steel
So bless me, oh bless me, bless me

Come the dawn
Come the dawn
Come the dawn
Come the dawn

Catch The Rainbow
By Rainbow

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9 Comments thus far...

flowerdave said...

thanks for all this. Noor. keep on keeping on.

Meg Moran said...

Thank you Noor. It is important that we have a place to share our experience strength and hope. Everyone is different, but we all search for a common solution. In the end the answer always comes down to a spiritual surrender.

Anonymous said...

I hope you and your wife have happy holiday away from all the daily trappings of technology!!!
I never read ALL of the comments on the Methadone post, but I do know that whenever Methadone is mentioned as an alternative it will definitely cause a heck of a stir. The people who seem to have the most negative opinions of it are those who have never been opiate addicted or those who have tried and failed with Methadone. The former generally have no idea what they are talking about and the latter are bitter because they let their addiction ruin yet another possible way out for them.
It's a heated topic, especially in the recovery rooms despite the fact that it is an "outside issue."
I would like to see you post MORE on it, Noor Azman, especially since it is new in your country. Addicts need to be able to make informed decision about choosing that option.
Thanks for all the good work you do on your blog.
As you can see, this is a topic I canNOT be quiet about :)

Rex said...

Thanks for sharing your experience, strength and hope.

lash505 said...

Thanks for the sharing


You are a wise man my friend and ScOut is one kickass chick. Thanks for the great post.

Shadow said...

noor, catch that rainbow. you deserve it! with all my love and best wishes....

Sober Chick said...

That's awesome that others are relating to your posts. I don't have experience in this but sure know how addiction comes in many shapes, sizes and forms.

Redhead Gal said...

I hope you have a restful break.

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